ecomium

2011-08-13T09:52:00.001-07:00

you too, moon (or, xoxo)

composer:
hardy f

for ::
reckoning
white beer
"romantic, not disgusting, yet"

--
MANGOLIA

Sunday afternoons at yr bedroom window
watch yr hips grind to th CBC
there in yr garden
at th’end of july

th world is no better than a case
th city drifts away
sweating yet coasting
casting a shadow

--
ERIKA TH WHITE

she knows black-and-tan pours
were something I could never master. she
walks my body and leaves me
sitting in a pub, lake above, drinking pints
of guilt

since when did VIP mean a matress w/o sheets in the middle of a dance floor

she says it’s sick and over b/c I am so mad,
full of unprincipled schemes and I won’t be coming
home tonight. I believe it’s over
because I filmd it w/o saying

I threw her nipples in th lake so
deep in th breast milk as I could come
but she in viking gown
as if some lover hunter
came back to rub me out

lower back tattoo shuffling down
to th watering hole
floating on her lake. she’s
barely out of her mother’s pussy
and already talks of marriage
and I came already once in her lakewater

it is astonishing
but I cannot fall asleep in her black hair. a
cinnamonlioness w/ smoke eyes floating
around in my come lake
but already came
and she has this yeah
yeah yeah
rooted so deep

--
ALLERGIES SUCK

I rubbed lobster stock
on my cock
sher lips swelled
when she gave me head

--
OMERTA

- have you had any animal experiences?
- yes

this poem is about regression and how
regession and I pulld th lime over her red
Queen Charlotte hair

this poem is about th local honey trade
and how there are about five stages to grieving
that need open space
like an omlette on a white plate

this is where I regress so much so
that her omlettes still make me sad

this is where I’ll be right w/ you after
I feel th strength
of strong beer from Quebec. for instance,
this week I don’t care
in rapids down a red river

this is where I resolve to be
an honest flowerman and start eating / stop
eating so much sausage and drink strong
beer from Quebec until I passes out

these old photos show Canada
all around us. we had so much in common
w/ those dead ships in Georgian Bay
and it’s not just th fact that I ended
up at th bottom of all this

--
Dasha, I cldnt help but ask
what is th right age
to be fistd

--
STILL BIRTH IN A FIELD

th night is as dark as th whole shit
and I’m heading out to kill myself
a calf to keep under th sheets
next to my family history

th night is white Germanic wrath
frozen and distant but smacking me
on th head, slowing me down --
a song w/ steps but no synths

I was just keeping my mouth shut
spreading my legs for work and liver-caring
for th cycles of black eyes
that send me North Sea herring

light and heat were paid
but frantic chemicals past dusk
sent me swimming on horseback
beaneath spiralling towers of bone

th’ancient matrix, streaked w-perversion
and strength. my knees buckle at th thought
of moving forward, so I change course
to a time
when veteranians were gods and on th ready

--
NEVER KNEW UNCONDITIONAL BEFORE

What happened to Jainism?
I even stopped eating butterflies for you
and developed a pattern deficiency
in the process

new connections in communication

You fed me black pills th last dedicate after the Odepus had died down in a radio death common broadcast no, but th problem is your fucked is not necessarily my fucked, unless of course we are fucking, no longer a subjective ceremony looked at each other Carrying groceries cold hands As an h intellectual I stated plainly stated they wld much prefer independent cold mouths

and locks actorCome out white. Where is this non-violence you promised me were Warsaw flowers astle / cottage / gallows We, that celebate dog-sleep you pland for us. and you came home w/ a perfect man named Job. As for your question -- Yes, one day you will be fucked, and sharing an internal space and on your face

--
YO LOV

believe me I said to her
breeding is perfectly natural
on a first date
on a dirty carpet

--
SILENIGHT Chirstmas 2009

I press shift and nothing happens.
O holy night I drink a finger of scotch
and nothing happens. All is calm and
all is darkly circling and I think of a friend
in th north. I press love and all is bright. I
have a another finger and virgins gather. I
hang my head and start counting the shepherd’s flock. Nearby
on a table goose liver is gently crossing rye bread. Th
sheperd lifts his feet in a way so seductive the holy infant sings.
In heavnly peace and holiness I
cannot get enough silent

--
RUSSIA (you walk a little slow with your pants around your knees)

Sitting there in her orange push-up bra I unleashed an intense pattern of words designed to hurt her. Persimmon! Dior! Honeymoon! Slave Lake! Felt it
might keep her close. th golden
doorknobs unturned
like yolks outside th future

bring dior goth small white persimmon russia cherrywood golden doorknob. like yolks, or suns,
or oranges

sleeping in my truck next to the Thompson River (thanks life)
listz staring at my camera w-green eyes. german expressionism had already made a mess of my sheets and now life ahead violently then attacked by police.
Gasp. God. why can't
tonight stone and wood be

I'm testing my body for snowflakes. open and hair, golden as urine
in like th sun. her shoulders. wodka, god, work wine, some more god
“the problem love are the best things in the world… being overconfident you attract a lot of women and they get mad and frustrated at faith . . you have no want some stavanger glamour her life idea what will happen to a woman . . . I think I know

--
love holic

no matter how hard you work
you are still a victim. blood is

she inserts her name
sucks a joint
through her canines
drinks red wine
th skinny truth so thin

I, morning, drinking,
will, try, to be, there, for you.
using th best reasons I can

made a suicide
pact w/ salmon. feelings, feelings, feelings

hands dirty from digging potatoes
beckoning her every Chanel channel
every time I raise my hand
a killer whale surfaces

say denile five times fast

breeding white dukes in denial. These men
who emerge from my body and become heroes,
great writers. and last out is this
dirty animal is a love song and red lips

--
POETTA GRIM

Poet means you’re deadkissin boys up by th paddlewheel on a –30 Prince George night. on th clock and wasted around kissin dead boys to entertain your tora de amo / rapping

your cold fingers on th young hims from th reading. using a thin layer of elbow grease to open th gaps you perceive in their minds & circling like a rooster of dawnless choke / but poet

you dream sir that you are a salmon struggling gently in a marinade of dill and such. or a glass of chardonnay sweating b/w th fingers of a woman’s right hand

oh yer frozen river lacks punctuation at yer
fishing hole dangling th line again thinking abt last year’s collapse & this year’s complexion. thinking abt buying a round for th’oily friends clining to yer back

-- say, hardy, can you take th salmon out of the marinade & pour me another glass of wine ?

ah, this date so perfect I stare across her lovely backyard and compose a poem abt stuffing her asshole w/ th fresh mint that grows so silently nearby

oh poet forget abt th sunset dram, th 808 synth blues, th live lobster, th sliced lemon, th seawater subjects, th Carver kitchen, th garlic stems, th young cocks,
th love fines, th damage done, th station pain, th prime rib and pinot noir kisses, th warho seeds, th avocado scars

forget abt them you you have enough hairy holes & limp lines to perform
another poem for these Prince George boys /
hurrah !

--
EGGS

Juicy Christ is crawling on th carpet
practically draak
coverd in hair
and morning light

last night
we chased th goat
er
we watchd war movies
er
we jerkd each other off

we listend
to throat singers
they are th best

c’mon. . . work that ass, Juicy

crawling around
on th living room floor. watching you
is like making love

man, I thought I told you
we are just eggs
coverd in hair. get up. you promised
you cld handle
seeing my cock

--
TH GOAL IS TO GET MORE HERRING PEOPLE FROM MY GENERATION INTO

goodnight father christmas

2007-12-25T21:36:00.000-08:00

two percocet. three glasses of cab
sav. two episodes of grey's
anatomy [ I can't believe he
crash. ]

two t-threes. th close quarters
of because. three lakes. seventeen
candles. one rusting cross
on my neck. one black
rise. twenty-eight points. three-methyl-
oxymorphone kisses on my red bag. one swastika
misshapen. th hound

is awake
one more glass
down another night. and th wall, do
not forget th [ black blanket ] wall

his balls

2007-12-13T17:21:00.000-08:00

he possesses awesome balls

balls as beautiful and clear as rainwater

there is artistry in th unfolding of his balls

balls that shake us like a death in th family

convo w-GP circa 2007 fireside [sweetwater]

2007-09-13T19:59:00.000-07:00

you gotta say something to the fucking videocamera!

why don't you introduce that fucking shadow over there

how does that make you feel...

"it's a land of hungry ghosts and evolved spirits"

hungry-hungry-hungry-hungry

hungry

2007-09-13T19:55:00.000-07:00

2007-08-19T10:57:00.000-07:00

2007-08-10T18:28:00.001-07:00

power is alluring to those who (absinth:444)

2007-08-06T21:57:00.001-07:00

2007-08-06T16:02:00.000-07:00

2007-08-06T09:39:00.000-07:00

every day / any more

2007-08-05T21:29:00.000-07:00

th way I see it I got three choices
th way I see it I got three choices
th way I see it I got three choices

/ or I cld jump out

my first story

window -- or

lack

there

of

it

114

2007-08-04T21:22:00.000-07:00

th lemons that are not for children. my best

shot is I will

sleep until september. I need a change

of scenery. high school was not

as easy as it sounds. one breath after another after

listening to enough graham parsons to kill a lover. guido

addd a little piece of history & we ate it w-

creme fraiche & chives. garden fresh stella -- "go there & have a pint

for me."

I can’t write fighting

these tomatos...

regrets? yea -- every single

day ( I’m not even

that sex-crazed -- th giver, th

clash [long distance callers make

long distance calls] are everything as usual

for th first time you feel again. I leave early b-c

I don’t want to be left. fighting one

on one ( wrap my arms around

her neck her neck -- th’arms I use I use to cut meat

& open wine. a place open until 3 a.m.

where I think I am laughing

blue

M-K Artist Camp

2007-08-04T11:38:00.002-07:00

FORT ST JOHN -- Artists partaking in the Muskwa Kechika (M-K) Artist Camp set off into the wilderness on Friday morning, and this year the journey is marked by a strong First Nations element.
The camp, now in its second year, takes 12 artists from across Canada and for one week sets them in the heart of the M-K where they travel by horse, cook over an open fire and let loose their creative minds.
Organizer and poet Donna Kane said that given the rich art and cultural importance of the M-K to First Nations it was a natural combination.
“Last year we were unable to get any First Nations artists in time, so this year we are really excited about it,” she said, as vehicles were packed before the group set off to Muncho Lake, where they’ll fly in by floatplane.
The five First Nations participants include Brian Jungen, the internationally acclaimed artist who has Dunne-za roots in the region and now resides in Vancouver.
“Brian is from our community and he’s always had that spirit of environmental issues and recycling ideas…I think it’ll be very interesting to see what he creates because his art is on an international level,” said Gary Oker, who is also on the journey.
Jungen, who went to camp a day early, is perhaps best known for the “Prototypes of New Understanding” series, in which he reworks objects into art form – such as aboriginal masks assembled from Nike Air Jordan shoes.
While representing nature through art is a central part of the experience, Oker also wants to develop the idea of environmental awareness in his work.
“How do we, as artists, create environmental awareness using art instead of preaching to people about it? I have this idea about the science of indigenous knowledge…and that’s what I’m formulating right now,” he said.
Saskatoon poet Laura Edna Lacey said she’s not sure what she’ll be holding after a week in the wilderness, but she’s looking forward to connecting with other artists and sharing the experience.
“I’m not sure how busy and active we’ll be and how much time we’ll have to sit around and write. I may come out with a pile of rough notes, or I may come out with a pile of ideas,” she said.
Photographer Wayne Sawchuk is co-organizing the camp and was in a week early to get packhorses ready and set up the camp, which is on the shores of Mayfield Lake.
The work produced from the camp will go into an art show that will travel the region next spring.

borderside (from th lakeside sessions)

2007-07-28T21:04:00.000-07:00

wood and margaritas says here

are only cool kids. a Jackson

Triggs kind of evening says

solo style / rock on

just abt to fire up october road. had a wonderful…

wood says it cld be even better. I’ve also been in

to th wine. in th dead of night, solo style says

to fall asleep w-perfect. ha ha…

to be honest says I feel so confused. th word is screaming –

sounds amazing, says, I was drinking yellowtail tonight. that’s

for you, that dream

says ( shiraz or merlot or buffalos ) why is

british columbia so fucking big

second annual Paddle for the Peace

2007-07-28T12:52:00.000-07:00

electro-dream(or, th spaces b-w her toes are like freeways)

2007-07-28T11:52:00.000-07:00

if you love me
if you leave me   I hope    you  live forever     then

            or maybe me drink talk a little so
            less afraid right now. they

are with their father

in th garden of myself
was an assault

            th suspects peeld back my skin
            and I flew

                        I maybe. light bones

I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl

you are seeing things (contact

                                 and you say th things
                                 you see

are free
?

                        a skinhead bathroom corpse
                        a green apple soakd in bleach

doth
oth
h
*cough – jesus christ, billy, we smoke

               8 hah, we make music videos
                    w-our teeth

see you later
sleeping  paradox                     (vid eados / drrty

                           my last chance was
                           a teenage trampoline orgy

my first sexual experience was
weird

                                 I am a scared animal
                                    I am a scared animal
                                    I am a scared animal
                                    I am a scared animal

maybe did you see
this morning

                                    a red mothe dream
                                    a blue berry nightmare

wake up
this morning      in bondage

and taste th’oh yeah of last night

                             you wrote that drunk
                             so I met th love

so I work eight hours a day
what
th
fuck
do I do
now
huh
?

I was going nowhere when

2007-07-24T18:32:00.000-07:00

to th cop that pulld me over

on my regrets. “we’re no one w-o some
one, he said, th memories in my head
straight lines and a new moon. he gave me a ticket for going

so slow

            devil beside me on th’alaska highway
            when I’ve been drinking. th lake
            lines are quiet and I’ll just
            keep

                                       to meet you

so far I’ve had more than enough time to kill,
confess, or in th city   lights
change. but how can we
forget what I did last weekend. just b-c
some people can start over again --

            get tickets and pay them. or do th time


                           closer to you

you dont have to understand me -- just hear me      out

                     give me a ticket            and move on

modern day conservation

2007-07-21T11:51:00.001-07:00

I went to save th Peace River
w-Starbucks and sparkling
water

la carovana della violenza [outake no. 27]

2007-07-17T21:29:00.000-07:00

you said you want me to be more like stalin

         and push yr hunger around a bit

pound you w-my hammer eyes
all into th night

       and easy comes,
       easy goes, easy flashes me
       her pussy from beneath
       a white bathrobe

              and locks th bathroom door

              leaves me in there w-nothing
              but th smell her shaving cream

                          see what mascara looks like on me)

it's you mirror             you and me

         maybe ill sleep on th couch

on th fence

             so what kind of person      am-i

w-th nut suckd right out of me

words worth punches wheat blonde ale

it's you mirror                                          you and me

  "come in me / im scared

b antisocial [from "th bp sessions"]

2007-07-11T23:29:00.001-07:00

2007-07-08T19:33:00.000-07:00

2007-07-08T18:36:00.000-07:00

Donna Kane has some interesting new posts on her site, including Barry McKinnon in Whitehorse & the next round of Muskwa Kechika artists. & in case you've been living b/w the scales of a snake, Ken Belford is here.

2007-07-08T17:33:00.001-07:00

this weekend I learnd
that sitting around a campfire
gives other people a lot of time
to analyze your life

2007-07-07T18:42:00.000-07:00

I can't wait until John gets to the part about mosquitos

[ reading Above the Falls; Kinuseo Falls, campsite 25 ]

who cannot be named under th young offenders act

2007-07-05T19:50:00.000-07:00

I fell for you in court when you appeard
via video from th youth correctional centre
in prince george. you sat there
in a small grey room while th crown
went over th details of a fight
in th parking lot of th local mall
where you beat th shit outta some girl

who pressd charges, and th judge
sentenced you to time served
(which turnd out to be more than you woulda gotten anyways)
and you smiled w-blonde hair covering
your eyes. and th warden said he’d leave you
at th gates

I knew those gates out in th woods. and you lookd away
from th camera like th ride was over

th judge askd if you had someone to pick you up
b/c a young girl on th side of a highway and then
alone at a greyhound station
is never a good idea, but th camera had turnd off

so I left court and got in my truck w-o thinking
because I could be there in five hours

because somehow we were in th same place and
I told myself it could work if we just
went from there

you have no criminal record and don’t worry
I’m on my way. when everyone has gone home
and th haircuts are expensive, I’m leaving town
and heading west. red eyes on a smoggy morning

6

if she doesn’t change,
how am I going to explain th shotgun

wedding. fully loadd and on a faint trail
along th banks of th nechako. and she’s got a black
bear in her mouth, and my heart is attachd to a human
skeleton

at a point, we could just never meet and thereby be real --
or else, you could get into my truck...
but how many people that pass you by on th highway
won't have that same thought before I get there

2007-07-03T17:08:00.001-07:00

don't be a doctor !

deer eyes

2007-07-02T14:02:00.000-07:00

we are drinking beer
my friend and I
in th back of a silver minivan
on th way to edmonton

lying w-my friend, no purpose, gazing
out th window, somewhere around jasper

wondering man those mountains, but
when I hear my name I don't really
seem to care

turn it up, he says

effect and cause
effect and cause

and in typical road trip fashion
we talk about how far we've come
since prince george, in tits and pints
but not twenty-dollar bills,
kilometres or tears

in th mountain pass
I pay cover to think for a moment
back to some of those scenes. limes
and eyes

th'animals are all roadside. many deer
are dead, and no one is clearing th
bodies. we are relaxd in th back of
th silver minivan

we are relaxd like th'eyes that bulge out
of the deerheads at th yellowhead

and th trucks. and th night

is a red chill, my friend,
sips harp regret, for us,
th night is something
to hold on to from behind

2007-06-25T20:16:00.000-07:00

la carovana della violenza [outake no. 26]

2007-06-24T17:57:00.000-07:00

might th wrong time
be in
these days?

       mid-twenties speakeasies
       are th rage
       w-all my friends

                          black eyes   red bread

                                hammer bisexual martinis

                          he hammerd wooden nails

into my dreamfloor, come over draped in bloom
so we have sickles in our eyes so what

       a windmill
       a good funeral dance

                           we only lastd 35 hours dead

down here in my creek [th rolla sesh iii]

2007-06-24T17:05:00.000-07:00

you are birds

2007-06-24T16:50:00.000-07:00

                                                       people don’t need love
                                                       they need success of one form or another
                                                       it can be love
                                                       but it doesn’t have to be
                                                                                                -bukowski

says, an appearance
you are birds

                              two burgers
                              & two cold beers

two burgers & two cold beers, says,

beside you -- goodnight -- little world war two

oh, is that what you are calling her

                              iv been called worse)

th german version
on special occasions, or in th bush

on sunday. you got a little fresh in th dark. yes,

everything is so predictable, yes,

everything -- two burgers, two cold beers & world war two

on special occasions

2007-06-23T15:41:00.000-07:00

down here in my creek [th rolla sesh ii]

2007-06-23T15:12:00.000-07:00

work, drink, rinse, repeat

2007-06-22T14:37:00.000-07:00

Th best showers were when I was a bartender, & th
faint smell of booze on my body. th northern
sun that rises at four in June. th black candle against
th blinds of everyone
I thought of love. b/c I was new

& it was nothing to do w hot water or becoming
clean, but th black candle & th fact it was bright
again before I’d go to sleep. in my pockets
$$$ from th men & women
to hear th twist of a bottle or another hitting another

for I was born yesterday & what th devil holds
at home alone for th waitresses
who were ready
for someone to happen. our black clothes were uniforms
& we laughd at nothing or summer rains
in anticipation of hard drinks on th soft red chairs
when th doors were lockd

seeing how things were hard before, like th top of th bar
was th top of th world
for dancing, & knowing little of th future I wld fall asleep.
in & out of th shower, I wld count my $$ & laugh
& pull th blinds

down here in my creek [th rolla sesh]

2007-06-22T14:08:00.000-07:00

2007-06-20T20:42:00.000-07:00

City fear to humour & we laugh along

2007-06-18T21:24:00.001-07:00

Take a city artist & stick it in the backcountry for a week to see what comes.

A video screening from last year's Muskwa Kechika Artists Camp at Donna Kane & Wayne Sawchuk's place in Rolla last weekend revealed one possibility.

By floatplane & packhorse, artists Sally McKay & Von Bark were thrust from Toronto's College Street deep into northeast B.C., along with a number of other artists. Not the everyday transition.

But that's one of the hooks of the now annual camp: shocking artists into a foriegn environment & asking them to relate the experience.

& in this case, McKay & Bark could be cast as confused & scared. Humour, often a by-product of fear, was a main theme in the videos; they were more along the lines of B-science fiction movies & children shows than an Audubon documentary.

McKay's first of two short videos was a spoof on grizzly bear enthusiast & all-round nut Timothy Treadwell, who lived among the bears in Alaska's Katmai National Park for 13 summers.

In the style of Treadwell's raw video footage, McKay trekked through downtown Toronto to the visit the grizzlies at the Toronto Zoo. It was darkly humourous when she reached the bears' pen, where they appeared unhealthy & lethargic.

The point was clear. However, despite his death wish, the "Grizzly Man's" strength was his passion, & McKay was ignorant of that fact.

However, the trip through the concrete forest did succeed in disorientating the viewer, who may have expected something more pastoral, which set up the proper reaction for part two.

Many artists-- like her father, poet Don McKay, for instance, who was on the same trip -- try naively to understand nature (even by claiming they are not). They sit on a rock and stare into a creek, waiting for a revelation (which is incidentally pervading them at all times). But McKay's takes a refreshing short-cut.
Her second video featured a fairy nymph (an actor reminiscent of a SCTV extra) that dances through hyper-morphed camera tricks against a backdrop of Muskwa scenes. Jerky movements & scared facial expressions relay the inner-turmoil the actor faces in nature.

The nymph strides over lakes & through forests to escape a bear. The backcountry is a dreamland. But it was funny & we laughed.

Now, Bark is not a good singer, nor, apparently, a videographer. He is one of those artists that thrives on nonsense, & therein lies his merit because he makes it watchable.

The first, Blair Witch-ish video has Bark tent-bound & humming a song about having six fingers. Then he rolls over and goes to sleep.

The second video features a backdrop of cardboard mountains, which probably wasn't filmed in the Muskwa, & was soundtracked by another song of random lyrics.

Everyone enjoyed the videos -- mostly through laughter. But the artistic merit became secondary to how the two people from from Toronto dealt, through art, with being trapped in nature for a week.

While the camp produced a multitude of work in different mediums, it can on one level be seen as an experiment on how artists from different areas of the country express their natural, northeast B.C. experience.

Bark's videos seem to have no real point, but at the same time it's better than another poem that wrestles the mystery of nature to exhaustion.

my chemikiller pt 7

2007-06-16T17:03:00.000-07:00

[a re-write]

2007-06-14T22:30:00.001-07:00

my chemikiller pt 6

2007-06-12T21:43:00.000-07:00

we walk around & drink some more
breathe in th cedars & th’ocean blood
flowing over th stones of black
rock tee’s

some of this magic is centuries old
or only just sixteen

december’s cuts are finally healing
in this field

there is no place to disappear. bedroom anger shows
on webcams, shooting yourself
through a shower curtain

black gown rain. beneath th dark flower
speakers to heaven. believe th grass stains &
in th warm beer. th screaming sins

after th show it is dark & we follow
lit cigarettes across soccer fields
to th bus stop

taste th dye in a stranger’s hair

follow th virgin’s tracks across th stadium

see th killer in a blue sweater

drag

mosh. old & young body frustrations

2007-06-11T23:17:00.001-07:00

th baby open

2007-06-09T13:45:00.000-07:00

I was at a party standing in th kitchen &
I’m nos ture how th topic
got on me & a baby

But this snake abt four-months pregnant
came in in her underwear &
startd to try to sell me her unborn
for $6,000 obo

Not even knowing th going rate
I looked back & forth from my beer
to her bottle of water & to her
smooth white – thinking where did this
come from – round stomach & told her straight up
I had no need for her offer

But addd that I wld like to be inside her
instead
for th modest price of nothing
towards my dream of sleeping
w/a knockd-up snake

jays lost

2007-06-09T13:19:00.000-07:00

for bowering's sake
I tryd watching another baseball game
but there was really nothing poetic
abt it

my chemikiller pt 5

2007-06-09T12:53:00.000-07:00

                                  all th cracks in bc
                                  led here tonight

nowhere. thunderbird,
this is th weather of our
anger. w/o skin &
it’s rolld out in ceremony

somewhere, back in th womb
now they have turnd on th sirens
for us

children unleashd
in saint anger
in mother’s red dress
in father’s old politics. listen,
justice is done
at th door of colours – come down
w/th stadium killer

eyes as wide
as white holes. this howl we love
when we are alone
& in pillows hear footsteps
howl silently

     one at a time

                   thousands of voices        ( screaming

stop

my chemikiller pt 4

2007-06-07T21:21:00.000-07:00

it’s as easy to imagine that we are th shadows of society

that form in th pain of

I want to go out tonight alone. miserable

fists, widow kiss, rise against, th stars turnd away

to look at you. strangers are so white & beautiful     ISM

                phantoms
                phields

                I want to go out tonight alone on th
                to look at you

in mascara rain, so depressd & so ded
following you in suburbia. did I ever tell you

                I feel
                you

never let th welcome in. torn fashion face,
wet from rain

give me th strength to walk th stairs

to th children we’ll not have tonight                 never coming

coming home never coming home never coming home never ISM
home never coming home never coming home never coming ISM
never coming home never coming home never coming home ISM
coming home never coming home never coming home never ISM

why cant I scream

my chemikiller pt 3

2007-06-05T22:26:00.001-07:00

why shld I care

                miss black fingers
                miss black hair

miss wasting away. gone
blue for sky. waiting

for something to come
absorb th rain

th hearts to be sacrificed again
th’endless lies
th corporate fuckers
th median rage
th media minds
th strange bedrooms. th shots. th window escapes. th’aqua blue

lip rings. th vancouver eye
liners. th night traffic

th’endless shots / th pain. th singer

my chemikiller pt 2

2007-06-05T21:05:00.000-07:00

Luz, you obey th dark cries. like war comes
to a quiet village. tanks
through a forest & upon th house
that has been there

Forever. at its feet, th body of th beast
is long &
it climbs into yr bedroom, up th spine &
to th heart

What yr body is worth. you crawl on th wet
grass while
singers fight. hold you to reach towards
a hospital stay

     th punk prostitutes
     th pain

2007-06-04T21:49:00.000-07:00

mfortable.

2007-05-30T20:53:00.000-07:00

written + photos by Hardy Friedrich
from Alaska Highway Daily News - 31 May 07

For the first time in 30 years, wildlife rehabilitator Leona Green crossed the yard to feed her bear cubs to find one dead.

“This is grim,” she said, as she took the cub in her tough, wrinkled hands and placed its body on the wooden roof of the pen.

In a dark corner inside the pen, the female cub’s brother huddled in a corner. The two orphaned bears, found in Montney and brought to her over the weekend by a conservation officer, were her first two cubs of the summer.

Green said she knows better than to get attached to the bears, but her disappointment is clear. Having rehabilitated over 100 cubs over the years, including six grizzlies, she’s never had one die.

At six that morning she brought breakfast and they both ate. They weren’t the sickliest cubs she’s ever received, but they were starved and had little energy.

“Most of them come in real thin, but I’ve never lost one,” Green said, back out in the yard of her farm near Dawson Creek as she shielded the Wednesday morning sun from her eyes.

“I’ll put the body in a bag and freeze it so (the Ministry of Environment) can determine the cause of death.”

The 70-year-old Green is one of only four people in the province qualified to rehabilitate bears. Although she has no formal training, she learned how to care for animals from her veterinarian father.

One day 30 years ago, after moving to the Peace region from Saskatchewan, a conservation officer brought her an injured owl.

“He liked the way I handled my animals so he brought me an owl and suggested I look after it. Then he brought me something else, and something else, and finally he said I’d make a good wildlife rehabilitator so he got me a permit and that was that.”

Over the years, Green has taken in deer, moose, birds, coyotes and bears. Moose are the most difficult to rehabilitate, she said, but the bears are pretty easy.

“Bears, they’ll eat anything and they are absolutely wonderful to raise,” she said, adding they get a varied diet of meat, fish, fruits, vegetables and vitamins, and often are released back into the wild at 18-months-old larger and stronger than their counterparts due to the steady diet.

But bears are also easily habituated, so she gives them space – only entering the pen to feed them and clean up. In the winter they hibernate in barrels on the edge of her yard.

“And not one of my bears has ever came back as a nuisance bear after its release,” Green said proudly.

The cause of the cub’s death remains a mystery for the moment. But Green speculated that the cubs could have gotten into something toxic before they were found.

“With all the resource extraction that’s going on out there you never know what they could get into – they will drink anything, like antifreeze or even out of sumps.”

The volunteer rehabilitator will likely see more bears this summer. The most she’s ever had at once was seven, and there was only one year she didn’t receive any.

Much of the food Green uses is donated, and she is always accepting alfalfa hay and meat (wild or beef).

thanks for stopping by

2007-05-28T23:47:00.000-07:00

Your empty gin glass is on th floor
dry as a another sunset
still from when you were here
walking around at night while I sleep
it sings a song of antibiotics
& lounges around in a sexless fashion

When I can no longer feel regret
for th lime that was cut for you
sacrificed for your cancerous smile
that eats at love like a broken record
or th biography of a nervous breakdown

Th glass I cannot bring myself to
throw in the sink, which
stares out th window day after day,
even when th flowers are shouting for broken glass
& th couch has reedemd yr poetry

my chemikiller pt 1 [th virgin festival 07]

2007-05-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

                                                    punk prostitutes hate
                                                    punk prostitutes hate
                                                    punk prostitutes hate

outside bedrooms on simply hate
grass we thrash th stadium night sky
to songs for our deaths

somewhere is empty tonight. hearts &
oxygen risk. th strum, screaming remains

rain spotlight falling chemicals & mascara streaks
white dreams. black bras under drenchd white tshirts. need
something to do other than run away
to th beaten floor
of summer tongues. fuck
it’s all we have --

so welcome to th beaten floor of summer tongues. of
right & wrong growing
up. december’s cuts are finally healing. this summer
throws. there comes a time in everyone’s body
for an aggressive dance

2007-05-27T17:29:00.000-07:00

after th fight

2007-05-27T11:23:00.000-07:00

this is after th fight / for jj

it was kinda romantic how we were
outside th door
in the dark
& you were warning me

press release

2007-05-27T03:25:00.000-07:00

Rob Hour, minister of time, announced today that

time is stupid!

thank god and for more
information contact:

hardy f
communications officer
Ministry of Time
250-good-night

th flowers that thot

2007-05-23T17:01:00.000-07:00

poetry day - dawson creek - 16 may 07

2007-05-21T11:05:00.000-07:00

Poetry in the Peace Country came out alive on May 16 during Poetry Day, which centered around readings at the city's art gallery.
Throughout the afternoon, students, the media and Frontenac House authors Dymphny Dronyk and Alexis Kienlen shared work.
The event peaked with a reading by acclaimed Canadian poets Patrick Lane and Lorna Crozier.
The day ended in pints at the rural Rolla Pub, and ended under a black prairie sky laughing.
Those are some details, visit www.donnakane.com for more.

*

good work

th way Patrick Lane came to th'old grain elevator
& workd his poems through wind & muscled
those words over hard work. his tongue shaped
but from his stomach still th push of meaning by
deep hits of rhythm. it was then clear that his poems
are not done until he reads them to you.

& in th'art gallery th walkway that climbd round
& behind the glass high school students who
cld not get a seat sat on th floor beneath th bright
paintings, lined up around th'edge like sunglasses
in a gas station listening.

& Lane was reading breaths full of Peace honey
& rusty nails & memories. working w/water
beside him he read from Go Leaving Strange --
"Everyone is quiet / in the stone of thier lives."
(from Match Stick); "His was a long story that came
slowly out of silence / and told without his
eyes looking at me, but staring instead / out
the window at the stubborn apples ripening,
a pale brush of fire / flaring under the hard green."
(from The War); "I learned
when I was young to leave things wrong."
(from Bent).

How he worked on his poems as he read
in th grain elevetor that night was as good
to hear as a man waking up at dawn to go
to work.

from the May 18 edition of the Alaska Highway Daily News
by Hardy Friedrich

The hardened media of the Peace revealed a softer side in Dawson Creek on Wednesday – instead of barking questions, we let slip poems.
In the grain-elevator-turned-art-gallery, the Media Poetry Slam brought together 17 unsuspecting poets and admirers of the craft in a day devoted to poetry.
Some read writing of our own, including myself and CJDC’s April Parker. Others brought a favorite piece to the podium (CKNL’s Ogho Ikhalo read Maya Angelou), while Peace FM’s Hugh Headley rapped the lyrics to Kool Moe Dee’s “Go See The Doctor.”
It was interesting to see that people who spend much of their lives in front of cameras, on-air, and in interviews were so nervous when it came time to share something other than the news.
Not everyone was shy – the booming Grizz Michaels, for instance – but there was a fair amount of trembling white pages, soft unsure voices and “I can’t believe how nervous I was” comments afterwards.
For it is, most often, easier to talk and write about other people and events than it is to reveal something personal in front of an audience.
We do it every day – get in people’s faces, get the story, block sentiment to stay impartial – while from everyone else we expect emotions and pry into personal lives.
So the tables were turned on Wednesday, and it was refreshing to see and feel. Humans being human, sifting through the hypertext, reading poems and songs that have a personal significance. It can be a vulnerable feeling to be up there alone at the edge of a risk, like a skydiver about to jump out of a plane.
But, like the skydiver, who has hopefully landed safely on the ground by now, a sense of relief and exhilaration rushes forth.
Having purged emotions and shared a laugh, the readers emerged from the art gallery and into a prairie wind lighter – smiling – and in most cases went back to the daily grind.
One of the featured poets of the day, Governor General Award winner Patrick Lane, told me after his evening reading that poets and journalists share much in common.
They both tell a story; they both sift through the details of daily life to create something for other people to experience. They take the facts and have the power to choose what other people read.
So, as unlikely as Poetry Day organizer Donna Kane’s idea seemed at first, it was a successful experiment that garnered many compliments afterwards. Perhaps every profession should have a Poetry Day, from the oilpatch to the post office. Even Dawson Creek mayor Calvin Kruk joined in later that evening with an uplifting Dr. Seuss poem – “Green Eggs and Ham.”
The events of Poetry Day – which included everyone from high school students to media to two of Canada’s most acclaimed poets Lane and Lorna Crozier – wrapped tightly around an art that is often overlooked. But its power could be felt through the Peace on Wednesday.

2007-05-17T22:47:00.001-07:00

th day after last night

2007-05-17T21:54:00.000-07:00

I put her & my name together
in a sentence
& publishd it too

th community. I thot
if I kept talking dirty to her
online b/c it seemd like that's what
she wantd -- my dirty mouth

sang country
as I drove down th'alaska highway
really fast

I dipd my feet in a canola field afternoon
& talkd to a big farmer
& thot abt her a lot more

th brazilian wives club

2007-05-16T10:27:00.000-07:00

how do I get in? I have this vision
of th poor part of town. favela gun
fights. but when you walk, hand-in-hand
in northern BC in th summer, down suburbia
lane, red dress licking th'air. & yr cousin
th drug mule &
sister th prostitute. in brazil
to save someone. a white man for change

how to save them. every one. or perhaps just
beautiful, on a beach, favela rising, a lonely beach &
on vacation

modo, neglect

2007-05-13T23:14:00.000-07:00

neglect is consistent

& therefore need not b

publishd

cool, neglect

2007-05-13T22:01:00.000-07:00

another blog. cool -- at th level of th system again. writing until I reach that interactive. through my fingers. stare into space. summer love

“ecomium” is kind of like standing on a riverbank, wondering. it’s practically. it’s like when
all this was inventd how we stopd talking
abt things & things went
inward. like standing on th’edge, inward

*
remember how you felt
when you said youd b there
but you didnt go. well,
really,
it was me that didnt go. I didnt go
for everyone. I was sitting in a bar. I stayd home to drink
& write. I was in
th backcountry. crouchd on a gravel bar swatting
moskeetos. in th’arms of a stripper. thinking
how designs. I spy

thinking abt media, but not of media. flashes. thinking
abt nature but not for nature

[ systems
are okay from behind. that is how a system feels
best

*
it is like cooley said

you dont have to raise your voice in print culture

so let us b quiet on our blogs. let us not
rattle th system. this is summer love. I like th shape of silence
itself. a woman sleeping on a binary
code. covering th main idea

2007-05-11T19:17:00.000-07:00