you too, moon (or, xoxo)

composer:
hardy f

for ::
reckoning
white beer
"romantic, not disgusting, yet"



--
MANGOLIA

Sunday afternoons at yr bedroom window
watch yr hips grind to th CBC
there in yr garden
at th’end of july

th world is no better than a case
th city drifts away
sweating yet coasting
casting a shadow

--
ERIKA TH WHITE

she knows black-and-tan pours
were something I could never master. she
walks my body and leaves me
sitting in a pub, lake above, drinking pints
of guilt

since when did VIP mean a matress w/o sheets in the middle of a dance floor

she says it’s sick and over b/c I am so mad,
full of unprincipled schemes and I won’t be coming
home tonight. I believe it’s over
because I filmd it w/o saying

I threw her nipples in th lake so
deep in th breast milk as I could come
but she in viking gown
as if some lover hunter
came back to rub me out

lower back tattoo shuffling down
to th watering hole
floating on her lake. she’s
barely out of her mother’s pussy
and already talks of marriage
and I came already once in her lakewater

it is astonishing
but I cannot fall asleep in her black hair. a
cinnamonlioness w/ smoke eyes floating
around in my come lake
but already came
and she has this yeah
yeah yeah
rooted so deep

--
ALLERGIES SUCK

I rubbed lobster stock
on my cock
sher lips swelled
when she gave me head


--
OMERTA

- have you had any animal experiences?
- yes

this poem is about regression and how
regession and I pulld th lime over her red
Queen Charlotte hair

this poem is about th local honey trade
and how there are about five stages to grieving
that need open space
like an omlette on a white plate

this is where I regress so much so
that her omlettes still make me sad

this is where I’ll be right w/ you after
I feel th strength
of strong beer from Quebec. for instance,
this week I don’t care
in rapids down a red river

this is where I resolve to be
an honest flowerman and start eating / stop
eating so much sausage and drink strong
beer from Quebec until I passes out

these old photos show Canada
all around us. we had so much in common
w/ those dead ships in Georgian Bay
and it’s not just th fact that I ended
up at th bottom of all this

--
Dasha, I cldnt help but ask
what is th right age
to be fistd

--
STILL BIRTH IN A FIELD

th night is as dark as th whole shit
and I’m heading out to kill myself
a calf to keep under th sheets
next to my family history

th night is white Germanic wrath
frozen and distant but smacking me
on th head, slowing me down --
a song w/ steps but no synths

I was just keeping my mouth shut
spreading my legs for work and liver-caring
for th cycles of black eyes
that send me North Sea herring

light and heat were paid
but frantic chemicals past dusk
sent me swimming on horseback
beaneath spiralling towers of bone

th’ancient matrix, streaked w-perversion
and strength. my knees buckle at th thought
of moving forward, so I change course
to a time
when veteranians were gods and on th ready

--
NEVER KNEW UNCONDITIONAL BEFORE

What happened to Jainism?
I even stopped eating butterflies for you
and developed a pattern deficiency
in the process

new connections in communication

You fed me black pills th last dedicate after the Odepus had died down in a radio death common broadcast no, but th problem is your fucked is not necessarily my fucked, unless of course we are fucking, no longer a subjective ceremony looked at each other Carrying groceries cold hands As an h intellectual I stated plainly stated they wld much prefer independent cold mouths

and locks actorCome out white. Where is this non-violence you promised me were Warsaw flowers astle / cottage / gallows We, that celebate dog-sleep you pland for us. and you came home w/ a perfect man named Job. As for your question -- Yes, one day you will be fucked, and sharing an internal space and on your face

--
YO LOV

believe me I said to her
breeding is perfectly natural
on a first date
on a dirty carpet


--
SILENIGHT Chirstmas 2009

I press shift and nothing happens.
O holy night I drink a finger of scotch
and nothing happens. All is calm and
all is darkly circling and I think of a friend
in th north. I press love and all is bright. I
have a another finger and virgins gather. I
hang my head and start counting the shepherd’s flock. Nearby
on a table goose liver is gently crossing rye bread. Th
sheperd lifts his feet in a way so seductive the holy infant sings.
In heavnly peace and holiness I
cannot get enough silent

--
RUSSIA (you walk a little slow with your pants around your knees)

Sitting there in her orange push-up bra I unleashed an intense pattern of words designed to hurt her. Persimmon! Dior! Honeymoon! Slave Lake! Felt it
might keep her close. th golden
doorknobs unturned
like yolks outside th future

bring dior goth small white persimmon russia cherrywood golden doorknob. like yolks, or suns,
or oranges

sleeping in my truck next to the Thompson River (thanks life)
listz staring at my camera w-green eyes. german expressionism had already made a mess of my sheets and now life ahead violently then attacked by police.
Gasp. God. why can't
tonight stone and wood be

I'm testing my body for snowflakes. open and hair, golden as urine
in like th sun. her shoulders. wodka, god, work wine, some more god
“the problem love are the best things in the world… being overconfident you attract a lot of women and they get mad and frustrated at faith . . you have no want some stavanger glamour her life idea what will happen to a woman . . . I think I know


--
love holic

no matter how hard you work
you are still a victim. blood is

she inserts her name
sucks a joint
through her canines
drinks red wine
th skinny truth so thin

I, morning, drinking,
will, try, to be, there, for you.
using th best reasons I can

made a suicide
pact w/ salmon. feelings, feelings, feelings

hands dirty from digging potatoes
beckoning her every Chanel channel
every time I raise my hand
a killer whale surfaces


say denile five times fast

breeding white dukes in denial. These men
who emerge from my body and become heroes,
great writers. and last out is this
dirty animal is a love song and red lips


--
POETTA GRIM

Poet means you’re deadkissin boys up by th paddlewheel on a –30 Prince George night. on th clock and wasted around kissin dead boys to entertain your tora de amo / rapping

your cold fingers on th young hims from th reading. using a thin layer of elbow grease to open th gaps you perceive in their minds & circling like a rooster of dawnless choke / but poet

you dream sir that you are a salmon struggling gently in a marinade of dill and such. or a glass of chardonnay sweating b/w th fingers of a woman’s right hand

oh yer frozen river lacks punctuation at yer
fishing hole dangling th line again thinking abt last year’s collapse & this year’s complexion. thinking abt buying a round for th’oily friends clining to yer back

-- say, hardy, can you take th salmon out of the marinade & pour me another glass of wine ?

ah, this date so perfect I stare across her lovely backyard and compose a poem abt stuffing her asshole w/ th fresh mint that grows so silently nearby

oh poet forget abt th sunset dram, th 808 synth blues, th live lobster, th sliced lemon, th seawater subjects, th Carver kitchen, th garlic stems, th young cocks,
th love fines, th damage done, th station pain, th prime rib and pinot noir kisses, th warho seeds, th avocado scars

forget abt them you you have enough hairy holes & limp lines to perform
another poem for these Prince George boys /
hurrah !


--
EGGS

Juicy Christ is crawling on th carpet
practically draak
coverd in hair
and morning light

last night
we chased th goat
er
we watchd war movies
er
we jerkd each other off

we listend
to throat singers
they are th best

c’mon. . . work that ass, Juicy

crawling around
on th living room floor. watching you
is like making love

man, I thought I told you
we are just eggs
coverd in hair. get up. you promised
you cld handle
seeing my cock

--
TH GOAL IS TO GET MORE HERRING PEOPLE FROM MY GENERATION INTO

goodnight father christmas

two percocet. three glasses of cab
sav. two episodes of grey's
anatomy [ I can't believe he
crash. ]

two t-threes. th close quarters
of because. three lakes. seventeen
candles. one rusting cross
on my neck. one black
rise. twenty-eight points. three-methyl-
oxymorphone kisses on my red bag. one swastika
misshapen. th hound

is awake
one more glass
down another night. and th wall, do
not forget th [ black blanket ] wall

his balls

he possesses awesome balls

balls as beautiful and clear as rainwater

there is artistry in th unfolding of his balls

balls that shake us like a death in th family

convo w-GP circa 2007 fireside [sweetwater]

you gotta say something to the fucking videocamera!

why don't you introduce that fucking shadow over there

how does that make you feel...

"it's a land of hungry ghosts and evolved spirits"

hungry-hungry-hungry-hungry

hungry

power is alluring to those who (absinth:444)

every day / any more

th way I see it I got three choices
th way I see it I got three choices
th way I see it I got three choices

/ or I cld jump out

my first story

window -- or

lack

there

of

it

114

th lemons that are not for children. my best

shot is I will

sleep until september. I need a change

of scenery. high school was not

as easy as it sounds. one breath after another after

listening to enough graham parsons to kill a lover. guido

addd a little piece of history & we ate it w-

creme fraiche & chives. garden fresh stella -- "go there & have a pint

for me."

I can’t write fighting

these tomatos...

regrets? yea -- every single

day ( I’m not even

that sex-crazed -- th giver, th

clash [long distance callers make

long distance calls] are everything as usual

for th first time you feel again. I leave early b-c

I don’t want to be left. fighting one

on one ( wrap my arms around

her neck her neck -- th’arms I use I use to cut meat

& open wine. a place open until 3 a.m.

where I think I am laughing

blue

M-K Artist Camp

FORT ST JOHN -- Artists partaking in the Muskwa Kechika (M-K) Artist Camp set off into the wilderness on Friday morning, and this year the journey is marked by a strong First Nations element.
The camp, now in its second year, takes 12 artists from across Canada and for one week sets them in the heart of the M-K where they travel by horse, cook over an open fire and let loose their creative minds.
Organizer and poet Donna Kane said that given the rich art and cultural importance of the M-K to First Nations it was a natural combination.
“Last year we were unable to get any First Nations artists in time, so this year we are really excited about it,” she said, as vehicles were packed before the group set off to Muncho Lake, where they’ll fly in by floatplane.
The five First Nations participants include Brian Jungen, the internationally acclaimed artist who has Dunne-za roots in the region and now resides in Vancouver.
“Brian is from our community and he’s always had that spirit of environmental issues and recycling ideas…I think it’ll be very interesting to see what he creates because his art is on an international level,” said Gary Oker, who is also on the journey.
Jungen, who went to camp a day early, is perhaps best known for the “Prototypes of New Understanding” series, in which he reworks objects into art form – such as aboriginal masks assembled from Nike Air Jordan shoes.
While representing nature through art is a central part of the experience, Oker also wants to develop the idea of environmental awareness in his work.
“How do we, as artists, create environmental awareness using art instead of preaching to people about it? I have this idea about the science of indigenous knowledge…and that’s what I’m formulating right now,” he said.
Saskatoon poet Laura Edna Lacey said she’s not sure what she’ll be holding after a week in the wilderness, but she’s looking forward to connecting with other artists and sharing the experience.
“I’m not sure how busy and active we’ll be and how much time we’ll have to sit around and write. I may come out with a pile of rough notes, or I may come out with a pile of ideas,” she said.
Photographer Wayne Sawchuk is co-organizing the camp and was in a week early to get packhorses ready and set up the camp, which is on the shores of Mayfield Lake.
The work produced from the camp will go into an art show that will travel the region next spring.

borderside (from th lakeside sessions)

wood and margaritas says here

are only cool kids. a Jackson

Triggs kind of evening says

solo style / rock on

just abt to fire up october road. had a wonderful…

wood says it cld be even better. I’ve also been in

to th wine. in th dead of night, solo style says

to fall asleep w-perfect. ha ha…

to be honest says I feel so confused. th word is screaming –

sounds amazing, says, I was drinking yellowtail tonight. that’s

for you, that dream

says ( shiraz or merlot or buffalos ) why is

british columbia so fucking big

second annual Paddle for the Peace

electro-dream(or, th spaces b-w her toes are like freeways)

if you love me
if you leave me   I hope    you  live forever     then

            or maybe me drink talk a little so
            less afraid right now. they

are with their father

8

in th garden of myself
was an assault

            th suspects peeld back my skin
            and I flew 

                        I maybe. light bones

I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl
I am a strong girl

8

you are seeing things (contact

                                 and you say th things
                                 you see

are free
?

                        a skinhead bathroom corpse
                        a green apple soakd in bleach

doth
oth
h
*cough – jesus christ, billy, we smoke

               8 hah, we make music videos
                    w-our teeth

see you later
sleeping  paradox                     (vid eados / drrty

                           my last chance was
                           a teenage trampoline orgy

my first sexual experience was
weird

                                 I am a scared animal
                                    I am a scared animal
                                    I am a scared animal
                                    I am a scared animal

8

maybe did you see
this morning 

                                    a red mothe dream
                                    a blue berry nightmare

wake up
this morning      in bondage

and taste th’oh yeah of last night

                             you wrote that drunk
                             so I met th love

8

so I work eight hours a day
what
th
fuck
do I do
now
huh
?

I was going nowhere when

to th cop that pulld me over

on my regrets. “we’re no one w-o some
one, he said, th memories in my head
straight lines and a new moon. he gave me a ticket for going

so slow

            devil beside me on th’alaska highway
            when I’ve been drinking. th lake
            lines are quiet and I’ll just
            keep

                                       to meet you 

so far I’ve had more than enough time to kill,
confess, or in th city   lights
change. but how can we
forget what I did last weekend. just b-c
some people can start over again --

            get tickets and pay them. or do th time

                           closer to you

*

you dont have to understand me -- just hear me      out

                     give me a ticket            and move on

modern day conservation

I went to save th Peace River
w-Starbucks and sparkling
water

la carovana della violenza [outake no. 27]

you said you want me to be more like stalin

         and push yr hunger around a bit

pound you w-my hammer eyes
all into th night 

       and easy comes,
       easy goes, easy flashes me
       her pussy from beneath
       a white bathrobe

              and locks th bathroom door

              leaves me in there w-nothing
              but th smell her shaving cream

                          see what mascara looks like on me)

it's you mirror             you and me

*

         maybe ill sleep on th couch

on th fence 

             so what kind of person      am-i 

w-th nut suckd right out of me

words worth punches wheat blonde ale

it's you mirror                                          you and me

  "come in me / im scared

b antisocial [from "th bp sessions"]